I’m not feeling very well today. Haven’t all week. Not sure why. It could be a number of things.

First, the change of the seasons always freaks me out. Not sure why but many times I don’t feel good in the spring and the fall. But I was okay last fall so not sure if that’s it or not.

Second, I could be on a low after Nationals. It was so much fun, I really had a great time and was on a high all that week. Levi did so well, got so many ribbons and Qs, that we just were happy. Now that it’s over I might be down after the high.

Third, maybe I’m sick. I just never know. My head hurts, my muscles ache, my throat hurts… I need some chloraseptic for my throat. And I wonder if I have a bladder infection. However, I really wonder about the old doc I went to at the Health Clinic, if he tested me positive all the time when really I wasn’t. That was probably 4 or so years ago. Now I’m usually tested negative but I have the same symptoms. It is frustrating but I’m paranoid about it.

I really don’t like feeling bad. I guess I have to remember it’s not going to last forever. I will feel better again. Just rest and take it easy and take care of myself. I’m so out of touch with my body sometimes that I just don’t know what’s going on.

Trust myself… trust myself… trust myself…