Anxiety and Transparency

So question to all those millions of readers I am accumulating… 🙂 On the Pay Per Post forums, someone posted this: “…taught me that transparency and familiarity definitely can build interest.”

Which just got me to thinking. I am going through a lot of anxiety right now in my life. I’ve suffered from Social Anxiety since I was a wee tot. I’m better now than I was, I’ve worked through a lot of crap in my life, and I’ve come to this point to work through the latest and most pressing issue I now have, which is my SA. It affects my personal life, though right now it mostly affects my work.

I’ve always kept things very light on my blog. And I do love blogging about my dogs the most, and dog training. I like to keep a record of my dogs’ training progress. But I could also blog about my SA and how I am working my way through it. I don’t, because… well, LOL, because I have SA! And for another couple of reasons.

One, because I don’t want anyone to be hurt by what I write. Honesty is good, yes, but really I don’t actually know how far to go with things. It’s a skill I don’t know very well. I don’t want to hurt feelings. Two, I don’t want to post about work and get in trouble for it. I’m worried that my friends, family, and coworkers might come here and find out things that would surprise them. If I can’t tell them in real life, should I post it on my blog?

I have posted about my PMS here, which is fine. But it’s not as personal as a mental health issue like Anxiety. I know I know… from my codependent past, always wanting to please everyone else and not offend anyone, I learned that I should be able to be completely honest about myself, and my true friends will still like me. But I always worry about that.

Anyway, posting about anxiety might be more interesting than just light hearted stuff. 🙂 I guess I need to find a balance. And Balance is something I’ve not been very good at in my life.

*sigh* so, new things to learn. Always new things to learn…

4 thoughts on “Anxiety and Transparency”

  1. Everyone is less than perfect. Be yourself. Mention what you would talk to people say at work. Letting us have a peek at you is what blogging is all about. Just like any group there will be some that like and some that won’t. Their problem not yours.

  2. Hey there! I found your blog from postings on the PPP forums, and just had to say this post rings true for me! I don’t have SA, but I can speak from experience on being a bit too familiar in my writings – had some friends indirectly ‘charge’ me with typing while infuriated and it could’ve ended better, but I could see where it can end a lot worse. Balance is good 🙂
    Be well,
    -Mari

  3. I have SA too! I have found that working with my dog really helps me with that. She is like a security blanket, and ice breaker, and a good excuse to bail all in one. More dogs equals more social exposure! AH! I’m not sure I’m ready for that.

    Thanks for you comments on my blog!

  4. Hi Rachael! I think doing agility with my dogs has totally helped my SA. I love doing it with my dogs so much… that I have pushed my way through the SA and kept on going. Four years now and I still enjoy it. 🙂 And more dogs does mean more social exposure! I still need to hide sometimes, and have done that all day today. 🙂

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