His Broken Little Body

I had a horrible experience today. Obedience lessons with Chase were awesome this morning and my trainer came up with some great things we are going to do with his heeling, his stand for exam (he gets too wiggly he loves people so much), an his go outs.

I also got my nails done, sparkled green and red for Christmas. I like them much. Then I came home and had lunch, then I planned to get the car washed, get a photo taken for a passport picture, then I was going to do some short Christmas shopping.

So I go and get the car washed and it’s nice and clean. Well, as clean as it gets hauling dogs around in it so often. I leave the car wash and I’m driving to get the passport picture and I see this little Italian Greyhound running through the streets and in a Firestone parking lot close to my house. I’m stopped at a red light and saying crap to myself, I have to help this little guy. He was big for an Iggy but too small to be a whippet. He had a collar and tags. So when the light turns green I turn the corner and park, hastily, in the Firestone parking lot.

There was another girl trying to catch him and he was scared so he ran out, of course, into traffic. A lady in a white car didn’t see him and hit him with the right front of her car. This was the lane not closest to the parking lot, so I run out in front of a car in that first lane, and I stand there frozen as I watched this poor little boy get hit by a car.

At this point, if you don’t want to read more, skip to the end, because I need to get this off my chest and it’s pretty graphic.

Graphic Bad Stuff Follows:

It was awful. She hit him with her front, and then he tumbled and crumpled and then her back tire went over his neck. His eye popped out, he was broken and bleeding, and his body just shuddered like a leaf as I stood there. It was like a movie. It was unreal. I usually look away from things like this but my neck wouldn’t turn and my eyes wouldn’t close. I just stood there as he shook and shuddered.

Finally my brain kicked back into gear when he stopped shaking and I pulled off my sweatshirt and laid it over him. The lady who hit him stopped and got out of her car, crying. The other girl was also pretty upset. But I went into take charge mode, my emotions were stuffed someplace in the back of my spine, and I picked him up, supporting his head, and carried him to my car. The lady who hit him, I told her to go on there was nothing she could do. The girl followed me and opened the back of my Outback. I laid him inside and went to Brickyard Animal Hospital, the closest vet to me and only a couple of minutes away. But already I knew it was too late for him. I thought he was dead. It was too bad of a hit.

I pulled in front of the vet, ran in, and said I have a dog in my car that’d been hit. They were super nice, one of the vet techs came to the car and grabbed him up. She saw a pulse in his neck.. you could see it, because it was pretty exposed. One of his back legs flopped around and you could see the bone, most of the skin was ripped off.

She took him in the back quickly. Another girl directed me to the bathroom and I washed up, I had blood all down my left arm, splattered on my jeans and shirt. I washed my skin off as best I could.

End Graphic Bad Stuff

They came into the bathroom and asked me if they couldn’t find his people, if I wanted to try to save him. I said only if he has a chance (which I doubted) and if he would be in too much pain then put him down. Well only a couple of minutes later they said he was dead.

He had a microchip tag on, and a tag from a rescue group. The vet took down my name and said they would let me know if they could find his people.

One of the girls came out to my car and cleaned up the blood. I have a rubber mat in the back and she scrubbed it pretty good, but I think there is still blood in the cracks. I’ll pull it out in the next few days and scrub it good.

So with blood on me and being emotional plastered, I just went home. I sat in the driveway, in my car, for about 15 minutes and just cried. When I dropped him at the vet I was shaking like a leaf, but I can kick into that gear where I need to get things done, and I do it. After… that’s when I fall apart. And thank the gods for Zoloft, because I’d still be a wreck if I didn’t have it to dull my emotions. However, I feel weird, like I should feel more, but sometimes it’s good not to feel more, and I’m glad I have it as a crutch. Though, of course, I was still emotionally stunned and bewildered and miserable. It was enough emotion, I think.

When I finally came inside I threw my clothes in the wash and hugged my husband for another 15 minutes. Then I put on my robe, sat down in front of the TV and cried some more. Levi licked my tears, he is such a good boy. Then I watched the second 2/3s of Alive. I figured I needed a show where the characters had it worse than me. And that actually did help.

Then my husband and I went to a movie, but it wasn’t really enough to distract me. And now I’m talking about it, because I have to get it out of me to help me deal with it.

The vet called back, they told me they found his people. His name was Gratzy and he was a 10 year old Italian Greyhound. He had been adopted only a year earlier.

Why he was out, I don’t know. I know it can happen to anyone, but it really pissed me off. He didn’t even have a name tag on, just his tags from a year ago from the rescue. If anything like that ever happened to any of my rescue collies, I would be blank with anger and rage.

So to those who read this, please send a little white light to Gratzy’s spirit. Let him know he was loved, and he is free now. I feel rather bad that I wasn’t more emotionally comforting to him in his last moments on this Earth. I was businesslike and had to get things done. But now, when I can look back, I can almost feel his spirit near me, and I hope he is thanking me for trying to help him. Maybe I’m wacko thinking that, but it helps me to feel better, and it really feels true.

Now I better go see what the Terror Tot is getting into upstairs. I so love my dogs. I am so glad they are safe.

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  2. I am so sorry that you had to experience that today. That sounded absolutely horrific and I am not sure I would be emotionally strong to take charge in a moment like that. Poor Gratzy, may his spirit be at peace.

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  5. Oh my… how sad. So sorry you had to go through that 🙁 . At least you had your hubby and your poochies to help you through this.

    **Hugs**

  6. Oh my… how sad. So sorry you had to go through that 🙁 . At least you had your hubby and your poochies to help you through this. **Hugs**

  7. I’m so sorry you had to experience that!! I’ve been in that position and I know exactly how helpless you feel. At least you were there to take him to the vet. I’m sure at the end he knew someone cared enough to try for him. Poor boy..

  8. Oh hun, I am so sorry you had to witness that! I am sure Gratzy knew you were a caring soul and would be thankful for what you did for him. So many people would have just left him laying on the side of the road with out a second thought.

    I would be furious if that happened to any of my fosters too.

    I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and will say a word for Gratzy in the monthly candle lighting ceremony for the rainbow bridge.

    Run Free sweet Gratzy.

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  9. I'm so sorry you had to experience that!! I've been in that position and I know exactly how helpless you feel. At least you were there to take him to the vet. I'm sure at the end he knew someone cared enough to try for him. Poor boy..

  10. Oh hun, I am so sorry you had to witness that! I am sure Gratzy knew you were a caring soul and would be thankful for what you did for him. So many people would have just left him laying on the side of the road with out a second thought. I would be furious if that happened to any of my fosters too. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and will say a word for Gratzy in the monthly candle lighting ceremony for the rainbow bridge. Run Free sweet Gratzy. <em>Lora's last blog post..<a href='http://pawspark.blogspot.com/2007/12/replying-to-…rel="nofollow">Replying to comments</a></em>

  11. Oh hun, I am so sorry you had to witness that! I am sure Gratzy knew you were a caring soul and would be thankful for what you did for him. So many people would have just left him laying on the side of the road with out a second thought. I would be furious if that happened to any of my fosters too. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers and will say a word for Gratzy in the monthly candle lighting ceremony for the rainbow bridge. Run Free sweet Gratzy. <em>Lora's last blog post..<a href='http://pawspark.blogspot.com/2007/12/replying-to-…rel="nofollow">Replying to comments</a></em>

  12. Oh Cyn, I’m so sorry… I’ve never had such a horrible experience, but I can relate a *little*. I’ve not actually witnessed a hit, but have been there to take a dying cat to the closest vet.

    You are an exceptional person. YOu did more than most.

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  13. What a sad thing – poor little guy. And what a horrific thing to have to witness. I know how you mean about going into the ‘get it done’ mode. Mum is just like that. When the dog’s were attacking me, she kicked them all off, scooped me up and checked me out in the car and when she found the bad injury, she rushed me to the hospital. For seven hours she kept it together, while I was in surgery, paying the bill, getting me home and comfy – until I fell asleep.

    Same thing happened when she saw me injured at the doggie daycare. She went into this ‘get me help’ – calm cool and collected thing – and totally broke down when I was home and sleeping.

    I think it’s all about the survival, mothering instinct type of thing – and probably even the fight/flight thing kicks in with humans just like animals. It protect us from a lot emotionally, it helps us survive, until we are able to deal.

    Hugs, thoughts, and comforting wishes to you, the pups family and the pup! He is now running free with no worries forever…..

    Woofs, Johann

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  14. Oh Cyn, I'm so sorry… I've never had such a horrible experience, but I can relate a *little*. I've not actually witnessed a hit, but have been there to take a dying cat to the closest vet. You are an exceptional person. YOu did more than most. <em>Fuzzy Logic's last blog post..<a href='http://blog.sacredpaws.org/?p=335&#039; rel="nofollow">The Shovel Game</a></em>

  15. Oh Cyn, I'm so sorry… I've never had such a horrible experience, but I can relate a *little*. I've not actually witnessed a hit, but have been there to take a dying cat to the closest vet. You are an exceptional person. YOu did more than most. <em>Fuzzy Logic's last blog post..<a href='http://blog.sacredpaws.org/?p=335&#039; rel="nofollow">The Shovel Game</a></em>

  16. Thanks for your kind words Charlotte, I am very glad to have my husband and my own dogs to snuggle with. They are safe and whole.

  17. Hi Flo, I hope he knows. I wish I had been more compassionate but I went into Take Charge mode and just knew I had to get things done. I did feel very helpless. 🙁

  18. Thanks so much Lora for saying a word for Gratzy this month. When I was a teenager I was walking home from high school and saw a cat on the road, alive, had been hit. His eye was on his cheek. and I just walked by. I swore I’d never just walk by a hurt animal ever again, no matter how gross or scary.

  19. Hi Lynn, it was awful. I don’t like to read graphic stuff a lot of the time either, that’s why I marked it as such for those who couldn’t bear to read it. 🙂

  20. Hi Johann, yeah I agree, it’s the fight of flight reflex that has kept humans alive, and allowed us to protect our young and loved ones. Your Mom is very brave and I admire her for taking charge and protecting you.

  21. What a sad thing – poor little guy. And what a horrific thing to have to witness. I know how you mean about going into the 'get it done' mode. Mum is just like that. When the dog's were attacking me, she kicked them all off, scooped me up and checked me out in the car and when she found the bad injury, she rushed me to the hospital. For seven hours she kept it together, while I was in surgery, paying the bill, getting me home and comfy – until I fell asleep. Same thing happened when she saw me injured at the doggie daycare. She went into this 'get me help' – calm cool and collected thing – and totally broke down when I was home and sleeping. I think it's all about the survival, mothering instinct type of thing – and probably even the fight/flight thing kicks in with humans just like animals. It protect us from a lot emotionally, it helps us survive, until we are able to deal. Hugs, thoughts, and comforting wishes to you, the pups family and the pup! He is now running free with no worries forever….. Woofs, Johann <em>Johann's last blog post..<a href='http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/JohannTheDog/~3/20…rel="nofollow">Snow, snow and more snow!</a></em>

  22. What a sad thing – poor little guy. And what a horrific thing to have to witness. I know how you mean about going into the 'get it done' mode. Mum is just like that. When the dog's were attacking me, she kicked them all off, scooped me up and checked me out in the car and when she found the bad injury, she rushed me to the hospital. For seven hours she kept it together, while I was in surgery, paying the bill, getting me home and comfy – until I fell asleep. Same thing happened when she saw me injured at the doggie daycare. She went into this 'get me help' – calm cool and collected thing – and totally broke down when I was home and sleeping. I think it's all about the survival, mothering instinct type of thing – and probably even the fight/flight thing kicks in with humans just like animals. It protect us from a lot emotionally, it helps us survive, until we are able to deal. Hugs, thoughts, and comforting wishes to you, the pups family and the pup! He is now running free with no worries forever….. Woofs, Johann <em>Johann's last blog post..<a href='http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/JohannTheDog/~3/20…rel="nofollow">Snow, snow and more snow!</a></em>

  23. Thanks for your kind words Charlotte, I am very glad to have my husband and my own dogs to snuggle with. They are safe and whole.

  24. Hi Flo, I hope he knows. I wish I had been more compassionate but I went into Take Charge mode and just knew I had to get things done. I did feel very helpless. 🙁

  25. Thanks so much Lora for saying a word for Gratzy this month. When I was a teenager I was walking home from high school and saw a cat on the road, alive, had been hit. His eye was on his cheek. and I just walked by. I swore I'd never just walk by a hurt animal ever again, no matter how gross or scary.

  26. Hi Lynn, it was awful. I don't like to read graphic stuff a lot of the time either, that's why I marked it as such for those who couldn't bear to read it. 🙂

  27. Hi Johann, yeah I agree, it's the fight of flight reflex that has kept humans alive, and allowed us to protect our young and loved ones. Your Mom is very brave and I admire her for taking charge and protecting you.

  28. Oh, Cyn! I’m so sorry you had to go through that. EnergyPaws let us know over at PetScoop what happened. You poor thing. You showed great strength and courage for that little guy. I applaud you, most people would have just let it go. Stay strong, keep hugging your puppies and grieve for as long as it takes.

    Love you,

    Annie

  29. Oh, Cyn! I'm so sorry you had to go through that. EnergyPaws let us know over at PetScoop what happened. You poor thing. You showed great strength and courage for that little guy. I applaud you, most people would have just let it go. Stay strong, keep hugging your puppies and grieve for as long as it takes. Love you, Annie

  30. How awful, for the little dog and for you. You did everything possible to help the little guy out. The world is a far better place than it would be were it not for people who follow their hearts and do their all to help those in need.

  31. How awful, for the little dog and for you. You did everything possible to help the little guy out. The world is a far better place than it would be were it not for people who follow their hearts and do their all to help those in need.

  32. That is a very sad story and I can understand how you feel. Like you, I know it would hurt to lose either of my two collies that way. I almost lost Essex within a couple month of getting her. I blogged about it in “The Mad Dash” back in June. My heart raced while Essex dashed down the street. A person asked me if I would be angry if someone hit and killed one of my dogs. My answer was: If it was an accident, no. If it was intentional, yes. Must have been my time in the military that cause me to answer that way.
    Joe – Essex & Deacon’s Dad

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  33. That is a very sad story and I can understand how you feel. Like you, I know it would hurt to lose either of my two collies that way. I almost lost Essex within a couple month of getting her. I blogged about it in "The Mad Dash" back in June. My heart raced while Essex dashed down the street. A person asked me if I would be angry if someone hit and killed one of my dogs. My answer was: If it was an accident, no. If it was intentional, yes. Must have been my time in the military that cause me to answer that way. Joe – Essex &amp; Deacon's Dad <em>Key West Collies's last blog post..<a href='http://keywestcollies.blogspot.com/2007/12/essexm…rel="nofollow">Essexmas at Our House</a></em>

  34. That is a very sad story and I can understand how you feel. Like you, I know it would hurt to lose either of my two collies that way. I almost lost Essex within a couple month of getting her. I blogged about it in "The Mad Dash" back in June. My heart raced while Essex dashed down the street. A person asked me if I would be angry if someone hit and killed one of my dogs. My answer was: If it was an accident, no. If it was intentional, yes. Must have been my time in the military that cause me to answer that way. Joe – Essex &amp; Deacon's Dad <em>Key West Collies's last blog post..<a href='http://keywestcollies.blogspot.com/2007/12/essexm…rel="nofollow">Essexmas at Our House</a></em>

  35. Oh, I’m so sorry. I’m just tuning in as I haven’t been on the net for a bit and read your so sad experience. I’m so sad just reading about it; I can only send you some hugs to help your healing. That could have been my Carrie-girl a few weeks ago running wildly in traffic. But we were so blessed that she was found and returned to us unharmed. Peace.

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  36. Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm just tuning in as I haven't been on the net for a bit and read your so sad experience. I'm so sad just reading about it; I can only send you some hugs to help your healing. That could have been my Carrie-girl a few weeks ago running wildly in traffic. But we were so blessed that she was found and returned to us unharmed. Peace. <em>Coralie Cederna Johnson's last blog post..<a href='http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/WildwoodPress/~3/1…rel="nofollow">Lost Sheltie!</a></em>

  37. Oh, I'm so sorry. I'm just tuning in as I haven't been on the net for a bit and read your so sad experience. I'm so sad just reading about it; I can only send you some hugs to help your healing. That could have been my Carrie-girl a few weeks ago running wildly in traffic. But we were so blessed that she was found and returned to us unharmed. Peace. <em>Coralie Cederna Johnson's last blog post..<a href='http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/WildwoodPress/~3/1…rel="nofollow">Lost Sheltie!</a></em>

  38. What a sad story, but it was awesome of you to help Gratzy. Some people would have just drove away and leave them to die. Kudos to you for doing the right thing!

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  39. Thanks Lisa, yeah it would be nice if more people helped. I don’t think the other ladies really knew what to do. I had decided, years ago, what I would do in that situation. So i could take charge and just do it.

  40. Hi Joe.. yeah, accidents do happen to us all. This Iggy, however, had gotten out multiple times and the people were not as careful as they should have been. It’s a small rescue world around here, for the most part we know each other.

  41. Hi Elizabeth.. yeah, that is true. He was still alive when I got him to the vet, though just barely. I hope he didn’t feel pain after he was hit… that would be awful poor guy.

  42. I’m so glad Carrie was okay, Coralie! That would be scary. I have rescued a dog or four or more off a busy street, been lucky until now. 🙁

  43. Thanks Lisa, yeah it would be nice if more people helped. I don't think the other ladies really knew what to do. I had decided, years ago, what I would do in that situation. So i could take charge and just do it.

  44. Hi Joe.. yeah, accidents do happen to us all. This Iggy, however, had gotten out multiple times and the people were not as careful as they should have been. It's a small rescue world around here, for the most part we know each other.

  45. Hi Elizabeth.. yeah, that is true. He was still alive when I got him to the vet, though just barely. I hope he didn't feel pain after he was hit… that would be awful poor guy.

  46. I'm so glad Carrie was okay, Coralie! That would be scary. I have rescued a dog or four or more off a busy street, been lucky until now. 🙁

  47. Hi Rachael. Thanks. I didn’t really feel like I did much positive for his poor little soul… hopefully some love got through to him. I pretty much went into Take Charge Mode. Don’t feel, just take care of things.

  48. Hi Rachael. Thanks. I didn't really feel like I did much positive for his poor little soul… hopefully some love got through to him. I pretty much went into Take Charge Mode. Don't feel, just take care of things.

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  50. Oh, Cynthia! I am so sorry that this happened at all, and sorry that you had the burden of dealing with it. But, for the sake of that little guy, I’m glad you were there. Even though he was undoubtedly completely out of it, I know that on some level he realized that somebody cared and was trying to help him. I kinda know what you felt, because I have had to do exactly the same several times in the last few years. It’s horrible, horrible, horrible, knowing that a thinking, feeling being is suffering and there’s no way to explain to him or her what’s going on. I’m crying right now, just thinking about it. May your karma increase eternally!

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  51. Oh, Cynthia! I am so sorry that this happened at all, and sorry that you had the burden of dealing with it. But, for the sake of that little guy, I'm glad you were there. Even though he was undoubtedly completely out of it, I know that on some level he realized that somebody cared and was trying to help him. I kinda know what you felt, because I have had to do exactly the same several times in the last few years. It's horrible, horrible, horrible, knowing that a thinking, feeling being is suffering and there's no way to explain to him or her what's going on. I'm crying right now, just thinking about it. May your karma increase eternally! <em>SheltieJim's last blog post..<a href='http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/SheltieTalesTheWor…rel="nofollow">Upgrade Blog Software</a></em>

  52. Oh, Cynthia! I am so sorry that this happened at all, and sorry that you had the burden of dealing with it. But, for the sake of that little guy, I'm glad you were there. Even though he was undoubtedly completely out of it, I know that on some level he realized that somebody cared and was trying to help him. I kinda know what you felt, because I have had to do exactly the same several times in the last few years. It's horrible, horrible, horrible, knowing that a thinking, feeling being is suffering and there's no way to explain to him or her what's going on. I'm crying right now, just thinking about it. May your karma increase eternally! <em>SheltieJim's last blog post..<a href='http://feeds.feedburner.com/~r/SheltieTalesTheWor…rel="nofollow">Upgrade Blog Software</a></em>

  53. Hi Jim, thanks for your kind words. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through the same, thing, too. It is the most awful experience I’ve ever had in my life. I hope he did know someone was trying to help him… poor little guy.

  54. Hi Jim, thanks for your kind words. I'm sorry you've had to go through the same, thing, too. It is the most awful experience I've ever had in my life. I hope he did know someone was trying to help him… poor little guy.

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