Bad Things and Good Things

Lucy, Levi and Angel 2002
I’m being all sentimental lately. Freaked out, entirely, that time is going by so fast and my dogs are dying. And, it looks like, the cat too. Littles. She’s in kidney failure and we will probably put her down next week, but we can only deal with one animal’s death at a time.

Lucy’s death day is Wednesday. I made the appointment. At this moment I’m not crying, but in five minutes I might be again. I’ve been going through old pictures looking at Lucy, Levi and Angel. Angel left us in May 2010. I am so upset that time goes by so fast. The next thing I know, 10 years will have passed and Lucy will have been gone for 10 years… just like Kip has been gone for 11 years now. Oh my, not good things to think about, eh? I remember thinking, years ago, as I lay on my bed one day, that I had all three young healthy dogs… Lucy, Levi and Angel. And now Angel is gone, Lucy is going, and Levi better be around for a couple more years or I’ll have a nervous breakdown.

About the picture, our front room no longer looks like that. That was when we had carpet (see the stains, lol), and the couch upstairs. Now we have tile and the couch and TV are downstairs. Though we might move them back up again so Levi doesn’t have to do the stairs. He’s getting too old for stairs and it seems to bother him sometimes. Levi is 11.5.

I always worry about forgetting the dogs too much after they die. But yesterday I realized that, even if my memory is poor and I don’t remember all the little details, I will never forget them with my heart. And I’ll always remember how they feel inside me. As they will always be with me in a way. Even as they take a big chunk of my heart with them.

I don’t usually combine different topics in one post but I have to temper Lucy’s pending death with a good note about Jet and agility. I looked him up on the AKC website today, and his AX and AXJ show, and so do his MACH points. Yay! I love that the AKC lets us see those online for free. I’ll post the pictures here below. My first MACH points with any dog, ever.

Below is a picture of our front room after we remodeled it, but there’s nice pictures up now. I just wanted a pic of the 3 smooth blue collies, and my husband is there too. Lucy is, of course, on the table. She always stood on the table to block our view of the TV when she wanted attention. LOL

Lucy on the Table

And here is Jet’s AX and AXJ. Oh, and I almost forgot to mention, as it’s kinda a side note that I hope will happen in December 2012. But as it stands now, Jet has qualified for the AKC Agility Invitationals. So as long as 5 other Danish-Swedish Farmdogs don’t start doing AKC Agility and beat us out, we should be able to go. I sure hope so. But… I do want to go and be competitive, and not just go because we are the only dog of our breed who qualified. Though if that’s how we get in, I’ll take it, and I won’t complain! LOL

Jet's AKC Titles To Date

Jet’s qualification to the AKC Agility Invitationals:

Danish-Swedish Farmdog AKC Agility Invitationals
Jet AKC Invitationals

21 thoughts on “Bad Things and Good Things”

  1. Oh gosh, I’m so sorry to hear about Lucy. I can’t and don’t want to imagine what you must be going through emotionally. We’re thinking of you. I hope your remaining time with her is special – treat her like a queen.

  2. wow, what a roller coaster for you. Congrats about Jet that is very exciting, but gosh my heart just aches because I can feel the pain in your post for Littles and Lucy, it is making me cry just thinking how hard this has to be for you all. Know I am thinking of you all and I am so sorry.

  3. I am so very sorry to hear that Lucy’s time has come to cross the bridge. We never forget our wonderful dog friends. Their time with us is always too short though. I still get teary eyed when I think of my first collie, Rover, and that was over 40 years ago. They take up a place in our hearts and never leave. I love that picture of the 3 collies on the couch and table, while your husband sits on a little chair!! We can see who runs the place!! That is exciting news about Jet–I am sure you will do well!!Thinking of you and sending prayers.

    1. Thanks for your kind words Dianne. Yes, the dogs usually get their way, and we spoil all the dogs, always making sure they have a comfortable place to lay. πŸ™‚ It is hard to let them go, and we never really ever get over it, even after 40 years, I’m sure.

  4. I’m so sorry. It is always so difficult to let them go, even when we know that it is for the best. Congrats on Jet, and remember all of the wonderful things you did with your older and passed on dogs, too. Then look forward to making new memories with the younger guys. I’m sure the dogs at the bridge will be cheering for Jet at the invitational!

    1. Thank you Jennifer… I do try to remember the good times. I hope I did enough with Lucy, sometimes I don’t know if I did. But my husband took really good care of her too.

  5. Oh Cynthia – I am so sorry to hear that Lucy’s time has come – you have put your heart and soul into her and have taken such good care of her.

  6. I’m so sorry to hear about Lucy Cyn. I’ll be thinking of you all day tomorrow. Me & my dogs aren’t far behind you by the way. I keep getting them all about the same time so they all come and go together. Maybe next time I’ll learn. On a good note, congrats on your invite to the Invitational and MACH points on Jet! So good to see you having so much fun with him!!

  7. “I always worry about forgetting the dogs too much after they die. But yesterday I realized that, even if my memory is poor and I don’t remember all the little details, I will never forget them with my heart. And I’ll always remember how they feel inside me. As they will always be with me in a way. Even as they take a big chunk of my heart with them.” So true and very beautiful (and totally made me cry)

  8. aww, I am so sorry to hear of your beloved Lucy πŸ™
    I don’t know why we continue to torture ourselves with dos, they leave us far too soon. However, I would take the short time they are with me over never having had them in my life any day.

    ” I hold you close, within my heart,
    And there you will remain,
    To walk with me throughout my life,
    Until we meet again ”

    Will be thinking of you & Lucy on Wednesday πŸ™

  9. aww, I am so sorry to hear of your beloved Lucy πŸ™
    I don’t know why we continue to torture ourselves with dogs, they leave us far too soon. However, I would take the short time they are with me over never having had them in my life any day.

    ” I hold you close, within my heart,
    And there you will remain,
    To walk with me throughout my life,
    Until we meet again ”

    Will be thinking of you & Lucy on Wednesday πŸ™

    1. Thanks Jolene… yes, we do always torture ourselves with dogs don’t we? I have thought that as well. We know they will die much too soon and leave us, and our hearts will break, but how can we live without them? They make life so much more amazing.

  10. I was talking to little brother last week and could tell how sad he was feeling. Still not over Angel and now Lucy, it is heart breaking. I keep trying to think of something to say or do that will help… but there is nothing. Thank goodness we have our memories and pictures. I love to swap doggie stories, they are such little people πŸ˜€
    I will keep you guys in my prayers. Love

    1. Oh Leslie, thanks so much for your words. He sometimes doesn’t express his emotions that much, but he’s been my rock and has been so wonderful through all this. πŸ™‚

    1. Thanks Kathy… I am okay, I’m still crying a lot, I think it’s going to take me a while to get through this. I miss her, it’s like she was the end of an era. I’ll post again soon I think.

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