October 16, 2007 – 8:28 pm
I’m sad today. I just found out that Sammy, one of our foster dogs from the spring, passed away last week. He had cancer. He was such a wonderful boy. I feel totally responsible that I placed him not knowing he had cancer. But talking to a good friend whose cat passed away a few months ago… she put much money and tests into the cat and his cancer wasn’t discovered for a long time. I guess sometimes cancer is pretty undetectable.
Cancer scares me. I like to hope it’s easier to detect in humans, but I’m pretty sure that is not the case. It’s such an awful disease. Humanity really needs to find a way to eradicate it.
Every dog that comes through our house also comes through my soul. And each of them takes a piece of my heart with when he or she leaves. But I don’t mind a bit of my heart going away, because somehow I am more full, more enriched, with each missing piece. I love all the dogs that come through our house and I wouldn’t trade getting to know them for a zillion dollars. The dogs are so much more valuable than money, it’s not even in the same league. I’d rather be poor, and know these dogs than rich, spoiled, and never having experienced their wonder, joy, and amazing souls.
Though of course I’d like a zillion dollars, and do more rescue with it. 
So sad day. This weekend should be happier, since I’m going to go do flyball and then agility the following weekend. I won’t have a radar detector with me, but I don’t usually speed.
Awww. here is another picture of Mac. Isn’t he a doll? I hope we find a home for him soon. He’s an official Collie Rescue boy, too.
I do wish that we did more collie rescue, but then at the same time, I don’t. Because it is hard work for sure. Mac is in a foster home for now. We only have our regular 4, which is making it rather easy.
I had Lucy and Levi to the vet yesterday. Levi got his rabies. Yeah I know I know, I don’t like giving vaccinations anymore. But Rabies, since it’s required by law, is one I will keep giving. We’ll see about Chase since he has all the signs of over-vaccination. But Levi has always handled it well.
Lucy’s new bump is nothing but fat, so that is okay. She is still limping. Looking back through past blog posts makes me realize we have been battling this limp for years. Poor girl. She is on alfalfa, glucosamine, and metacam, and she still limps. She’s going to go in for acupuncture next week, maybe that will help some. But the doc said if she had bone cancer or anything, it would show in xrays and blood work and we’ve had it all done on her. Hrmph.
Levi is our healthy boy. Chase and Angel will go in in the next few weeks for heartworm tests, as they are all due, we will start that up again for spring.
September 24, 2004 – 3:08 pm
Randomness stolen from Lisa - Stolen from Kim
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Unbold the things that are false.
4. Add your own truth to the bottom.
01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don’t watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I think sleep interferes with life
05. I don’t really read books anymore
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I only like playing Mario Brothers and Tetris
08. I’ve tried coke
09. I’m mostly attracted to men
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been in a codependent relationship
12. I don’t believe in love at first sight
13. I have acne free skin
14. I don’t really know much about Al Sharpton
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have an iPod
18. I’ve come to terms with my body type.
19. I never felt the need to own a weapon
20. People often assume I’m very intelligent… and I think they’re wrong
21. I’ve never broken someone’s bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I’m paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and no scars
26. I spend more money than I should
27. I love Sushi
28. I sometimes mumble
29. I sometimes forget to brush before bed (eww)
30. I color/highlight my hair
31. I have never placed a bet
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in the U.S.
34. I only shave my legs when I have to wear a skirt
35. I was an only child for a very long time
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn’t survive without my cell phone.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I told a lie in the past 6 months
40. The only way I wear my hair is straight
41. I am usually optimistic and hopeful
42. My moods are generally stable
43. I carry a lot of regrets
44. I think Britney Spears is nasty
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I wish I had a talent
47. I’m always mellow no matter how much sugar I have
48. I’m too inhibited
49. I’ve been in a relationship that lasted more than 3 years
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I don’t like talking on the phone for more than 15 minutes
52. I practically live in jeans
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather spend money than eat
55. I would classify myself as laid back cool.
57. I wore glitter everyday of my Sophomore high school life
57. I’m obsessed with my Ujournal or Livejournal/blog
58. I’m afraid of running into someone again.
59. I’m a shitty dancer unless the lights are dim
60. It took me moving back to NY to realize celebrities aren’t worth the crazy hype
61. I got along with my mom
62. I have a cell phone
63. I don’t have enough time to think about God anymore
64. I think MTV is stupid
65. I have a low drinking tolerence
66. I hate drama
67. I am a serial monogamist
68. I’ve rejected someone before
69. I currently find someone I work with cute
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I never had to call the cops
74. I don’t wear nail polish anymore
75. I am not a member of any fan club
76. I’m allergic to raw egg yolk
77. I have a lot to learn
79. I enjoy reading magazines
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I wish I wasn’t so connected to the internet
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I suck at returning phone calls
84. I have NEVER made a move on a friend’s significant other
85. I really liked the “South Park” movie!
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played “I’ll show you mine if you show me yours”
88. I can’t stand music like Korn or Andrew W.K.
90. I’m not a huge fan of pizza!
91. I lost a loved one to cancer
92. I go where the wind takes me
93. I take a long time to fall asleep
94. I love reading celebrity low brow gossip
95. I know all the words to “Stay” by Lisa Loeb
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I think fast food is gross
99. I’m happy as of this moment
100. I own a bicycle
101. I crack my knuckles, knees, toes, back, elbows, wrists, kneck…..too much.
102. I love chocolate.
103. I have one greenish eye and one brown eye.
104. My Dogs are my best friends.
Cynthia Blue
