Emotionally Drained

Ugh. So Angel still isn’t doing well. We took her back to the vet yesterday just to see what they recommended. We did some more blood work. It came back just fine. She’s not eating much at all now, only a few bites of food once or twice a day. She’s dropping weight really fast and she’s getting so very light now.

Angel and Chase April 2005

She has a fever of 104.7, which is really high. About 101 is normal. The vet gave us some antibiotics to see if they will help. But her white blood cell count is normal. So in a way her body is fighting something off. In another way it’s not.

So she is really going downhill fast. We cried at the vet a little yesterday. I cried coming home from work today. Right now Angel is on my bed with me and we are snuggling. We have to let her go soon. She is just old. We don’t want her to go, we are very sad. But we don’t want her to be in pain, either.

This is a cute picture of her and Chase playing tug. She didn’t play tug much with Chase, but she did love to play and have me chase her around when she had toys and socks. Now she just sleeps all the time. I love her so much, this makes me very, very sad.

And I’ve eaten too much sugar tonight, ignoring the quick weight loss tips, because when I’m stressed I either don’t eat, or I eat junk. Bleh. I’m just an idiot. Oh well. Angel, I love you so very much.

5 thoughts on “Emotionally Drained”

  1. I am so sorry you guys have to go through this. It is just never an easy thing to deal with. I am glad though that you are getting some peaceful time with her. Hang in there!
    .-= katie´s last blog ..How Many Miles In How Many Days? =-.

  2. I can not tell you how sorry I am that you are going through this. On the other hand I am so happy for you that you are getting the time to say your goodbyes and to really enjoy these last few days. Know you all are in my thoughts and hang in there.
    All things you know but…I guess it comes way down on the list right now with all this stress, but I am a HUGE stress eater maybe you can buy some precut veggies and fruit that you leave where it is easy to eat, and make sure you have some lower calorie, healthier comfort food you like, a list of things you would like to eat on the fridge might help when you do not have the energy to sit and think of what you should eat, as hard as it is right now to take care of yourself, things will be easier to handle if you stay healthy, and keeping your blood sugar stable will help with how you feel mentally and physically 😉 –you can tell me that next time I am stressed and doing bad things, LOL, and knowing me it wont be long until I will need that reminder.
    .-= Kathy´s last blog ..Mothers day 2010, and thoughts on picking puppies =-.

  3. I really hope I did not sound bad in my comment….I do think you should give yourself a little extra room at a time like this, but I do know how you have really been doing so well at making great healthy changes…and you have inspired me to get back to work on that myself…so I am sure you will do what ever is going to work for you in the long run 😉

  4. It’s so very hard to let them go 🙁 Been down the road a time or two and it never gets easier. Its ok to cry and then cry some more *hugs*
    .-= Daethian´s last blog ..Oh my dog! By Beth Ostrosky Stern on sale now! =-.

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